what do i do to ignore them behind me?
do i follow my instincts blindly?
do i hide my pride / from these bad dreams
and give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
do i / sit here and try to stand it?
or do i / try to catch them red-handed?
do i trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
or do i trust nobody and live in loneliness?
because i can't hold on / when i'm stretched so thin
i make the right moves but i'm lost within
i put on my daily facade but then
i just end up getting hurt again
by myself [myself]
i ask why, but in my mind
i find i can't rely on myself
i can't hold on
[to what i want when i'm stretched so thin]
it's all too much to take in
i can't hold on
[to anything watching everything spin]
with thoughts of failure sinking in
if i / turn my back i'm defenseless
and to go blindly seems senseless
if i hide my pride and let it all go on / then they'll
take from me till everything is gone
if i let them go i'll be outdone
but if i try to catch them i'll be outrun
if i'm killed by the questions like a cancer
then i'll be buried in the silence of the answer
[by myself]
how do you think / i've lost so much
i'm so afraid / i'm out of touch
how do you expect / i will know what to do
when all i know / is what you tell me to
don't you know
i can't tell you how to make it go
no matter what i do, how hard i try
i can't seem to convince myself why
i'm stuck on the outside
